A Sycophant

I m strong,
I wanna be strong,
I will have to be strong..
These three lines keep flowing in my mind
But one flash of our memories
Make my pain trickle down my checks.
I try,
I try,
To soak them and not let this crucial world know
Becoz I know none will believe my story
None will accept my crushed heart.
He said I am your true friend,
He said he will never leave me alone,
Now he thinks I m irritating and repeat my lines and so on.
That bores him but nothing else.
The ebullient me is dead we can say,
Oh you heinous! You are a sycophant one day world will say.
You enamoured me by your buttery words
I was gullible enough to be spellbound by your sugary words,
Oh! You wicked human being you lied to me in order to fulfill your vicious dreams.
But now I will be strong
I will have to be strong
I wanna be strong
So that none can  put me to this rage ever.
"Love" this word itself makes me apoplectic,
The women in me took umbrage over being let down by that person,
But now I will have to be sanguine about d life,
So that I could make the rest of my life full of innocence  which once belonged to me.